Listen, I Just Wanna Be Me.

Oh can’t you see? I’m just being. I can’t be you and I don’t wanna be. All that I do, I just wanna be me.  I just wanna be who I wanna be not others wanna see…. Simply, I am what I am…

I look into the mirror then I smile when I see my reflection. I always tell to myself to love the way I am and never try to be anyone else. Because there’s only one ‘Lizzy’ in this whole word, then why do I just wanna be anyone else if I can be me.

I am what I am. It doesn’t mean I revere myself too much or being narcissism. It just means I’m happy just because of being me. It means I love the way I do, they way I am even with all my deficient. It means that I never want to be  ‘a copy cat’ or being what people want to see.

I know, we are human, so it’s perfectly rational if we are afraid of other’s opinion, their judgement. And it’s also the fact, we’re always judged. They judge our personality, our appearance, our social class, our intelligence and etc. But do you really think we should try to be someone who they really want? Someone that you never want to be?

Well, I will directly say NO.

This is me. And if you look at the mirror, That’s the real you. Then please don’t ever try to be any other people. No one but you. You are special with all your deficient, no one is perfect.

Even it’s so hard to hear about their judgement, even if you always get hurts. You should just be yourself. You should love yourself. You should be confident and tell the world that This is You! And no one can change it, no one can make you as a copy cat of someone. You should realize that the best thing in this life will happen when you just be yourself.

No more hiding from any other people. No more hiding from the truth. You can smile when you really want to smile. You can cry if you really want to cry. You can laugh as much as you want. You can do the crazy thing. Don’t worry about their judgement. Because usually they do just jealous with you. They get jealous because they see you are happy, you can do whatever you want and you can be the real you.

Start from now, let’s try to love ourselves. Give the pure love for yourself. You  should be the first who support yourself. You should be the first who said love to yourself. You should the first who listen to your heart.

How come you let anyone loves you if don’t even love yourself? How come you let anyone make you to be what they want. You should be happy, don’t even try to hide what you want or who you wanna be.

All you should do is just be yourself. Keep saying that this is me and I am what I am.

 

All we could do is just stay and keep going

All we could do is just stay and keep going, no matter how hard the storm try to make us fall down. No matter how much pain that we get. All we could do is just stay and believe that after the storm will become a rainbow….

We live in a chaotic world. A chaotic activity that sometimes leads us to feel the boredom. We are normal if we still can feel it. We are normal if we just stuck in one work or activity then we just let our tears fall down.

I know, it’s hard when we just stuck and then we start hating our activity, our live. I have seen about these cases, yet I ever feel the same like everyone did.

I saw the teenager and they just said they hate to study, they were lazy to do their homework and they did hate all those exams that they should pass it. They felt the boredom, they asked for justice to make them felt the freedom (in this case without any homework and exams).

I also saw the university student. They mostly had same feeling with the teenager who study in their school. The difference is just about their age and how do they control their emotion. These students started hating their major, felt stuck then they just lost all those chance to be active. They just chosen to be passive because they just didn’t have any passion in there. They just want to be free and learned what they really want.

Those are same, even if we are already work in some place. We probably can feel such those feelings. It’s life. It’s normal. But we should pay attention, because those feelings can change our life.

What do you think if you just stop moving and just let the time going?

You just wait for nothing and you never try to do or even start a new thing. It’s will be so horrible. And believe me, it just leads you to be worse and worse. 

I told you it’s normal when we just getting bored with all our activities, our study, exams and many things. But all we could do is just stay. We need to stay there with all out patience. We live in this earth, we should respect our life and we should be patience. We can’t get all that we want just in sec. We should struggle for that. We should stay.

But if you couldn’t stay, leave it and find any better place that you want. But if you choose this second option, you should take the risk. You should be brave enough, and think any better idea to make you could stay in your new place.

That’s all. We have all the risks, all the consequences to choose it because it’s our life.

It’s your life and you are the only one who could change it.

Only if you could stay and gain more energy just to survive to the end or if you want to leave and start a new beginning. But all you have to do is just keep going…

A chaotic mind about Love

Guess who never fall in Love?

I bet no one did because I do believe that everyone ever feel it.

What do you think about it? Is it such a wonderful thing? Or such a terrible thing?

I smile, when I write this post. I never mean to share my experience in this post but I do want to give my opinion about it.

Love,

Well, love can give you everything, wonderful and also terrible things. Maybe sometime, when we just in love (in this case a relationship love) with someone. We feel like, this is our best moment and we do really want to make it lasts forever. We just want to stay in our lover’s side and make sure that everything is right. Everything seems to be right because he/she is in my side.

But another thing,

Love can show us such a nightmare. Love can give us so much pain that we never feel before. It leads us to cry, cry out loud. Maybe it can make us feel that we just got the worst moment in our life. And no one could help us, except him/ her. It leads us to feel lonely just because we already lose him/ her.

That’s the fact. A relationship love can be so harmful if we just found it- not in proper time. But we can’t blame anyone for that. Because Love can find their own way and Love is so unpredictable. Sometimes, we just found it, we feel it just a moment like Love at first sight (if you believe about it). It’s easy to fall in love but it’s really hard to control it. Because mostly when we fall in love, we can lose our mind, we can do a crazy thing for the sake of Love.

I just want you to know,

We should believe that we can control our mind, our heart- even it’s the hardest thing. Don’t let Love destroyed our life. Don’t suicide just because we lose our love.
We should realize that we still have much love from other people, like family, friends, teacher and another. Don’t close your heart. You should open it and let you feel all that their all is just for you. Everything is right. You can gain the many thing from the terrible moment. Sometimes, it leads you to be stronger than ever.

And the last.

Fall in love is like a destiny, like fate. And I do believe we can’t control when will we fall in Love.

But…

We can control our love. We are the one who can choose the option. To grow it or to leave it died by itself…

Love can give so many things. And all we could do is just waiting for the right time to fall in love- with no more hurts.

We’ll have a gorgeous Love when we found and feel it in the proper time.

One love that lasts forever. 

 

 

 

Wonderful and Terrible Thing

I’m telling you this because life can do terrible things

Someone told me that Life can bring a wonderful thing…
And someone else told me that Life can bring a terrible thing…
I believe that is true, Life give us such many things,
Even a wonderful thing which bring you smile and all the happiness,
Or a terrible thing which bring you all the sadness

Life can bring a wonderful thing and also a terrible thing and either with love.
Love can make you feel the happiest moment but also the most terrible moment.
It depends on you, it depends to how you bring it…

Love is on its way.
And no one will know how they find it,
Because sometimes it just comes suddenly and just like a fate, a destiny…

Today,
I just read a post.
Yea someone told me that….
“‎’I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else.

It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times.

It means loving you when you’re in bad mood or too tired to do things I want to do.
It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with.
It means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine.
It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go.
It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping you feel the same way about me.”

Love is the way how we care about someone,
Love is the way how we give without hoping we will get the same,
Love is the way to show this the real me,
Love is the way to show this is me,
Love is the way to show ‘I am what I am and You are what You are. And I don’t want to change a thing’

Lizzy, 27/01/2012, 08.56 A.M

Without the bitter, the sweet isn’t as sweet

Without the bitter, the sweet isn’t as sweet.Without those barriers and obstacles, the success wouldn’t feel that great. And without feeling the most terrible thing we would never understand about the most beautiful thing

That’s the truth. And that’s also happened in our life. We need to feel the most terrible moments. We need to feel the most horrible moments. Why do we need to feel it? Because by feeling it we’ll understand about the beautiful things, by feeling it we’ll know and realize that those moments are also have a good part. Because only those things who could make us to a better person. Those things will show us the way to be the stronger one.

Without the bitter, the sweet isn’t as sweet.

I never blame anyone if sometimes we keep complain about his/her life. Sometimes, we keep searching for someone to be blamed. And I also understand if sometimes we keep complain about all that happened to us, we keep blaming those terrible and horrible moments that always make us feel that this is our bad day.

We’re just an ordinary human. We could feel bored and stuck with our daily activity. It’s normal if sometimes we just want to break the limit and just feel freedom.

But, at the end we’ll realize that life isn’t that simple. Life is so hard, well that’s the truth. We need to survive and strive, at least to stay. I still believe that everything happens for a reason. Even the bitter thing, even the worst thing that happens to us. I believe that I can gain something worth behind it, I could learn from it.

I know, It’s hard to do and believe it. I know, to do is much harder than just to say-even to write. But, I believe that everyone want to be a better person. And by the time, we could be more mature.

Life is hard and I believe that the bitter thing can be the sweetest thing at the end of the time.

No more heroes…

And through it all, and through it all. When you’re tired and you stumble. I will carry on. When starlight falls my love will guide you home. You’ll never be alone. When there are no more heroes…

No more heroes. No one to hold and no no one could help you out.

Do you ever think about it?

We live in a real life. We don’t have any heroes. We stay here alone, try our best to survive. I have think about it. And I just got the reason. If we don’t have any heroes then why don’t you just be a hero for you self? You are the hero. A real hero for yourself. A real hero who ca change your life. You are the only one, the only person who can make your life to be better. You are the hero, at least for yourself.

I never blame anyone if sometimes, we stuck in our life, our activity-like in works, school or college- and we just want and need someone to hung up. Sometimes we really need a hero to help us, to make us believe that we can stand in this very hard life. We need hero to helps us finding a really better way just to survive.

But, see?

There are no more heroes. No one could help us-even a hero, if we just hope and wait till ‘that hero’ comes and changes all that we hate to be all that we love.

All we have to do is just believe that we can be THE HERO, at least for ourselves.